early-bird-byes

It's early, but I can't help it. I think about it all the time: Australia...! Naturally, I get in these--- uhhh--- moods. Along with feeling super excited, because Australia and being a missionary is going to rock, I also have a tendency to feel a little blue. I can't help it. I like my friends, specifically my boyfriend/ best friend, who I will, from now on, call Mac. (He still hasn't told me if it is okay to say his name on my blog where the entire world can read it. I don't think I have that many readers. Maybe I do. I'd be surprised if I did...)

Anyway, I wrote a song. I've never written a song before. I just started writing poetry, actually. The problem is, it doesn't have a melody. It doesn't have notes. It's just words: verses and a section that I think would make a good chorus.

This is still a rough draft, I think. Not only does it not have music, which I suppose is key to writing a song--- (no pun intended when I said "key.")--- but I also feel like there is something missing. Perhaps there is another verse that I still need to write. But here is what I have so far. Let me know what you think of it. I suppose it is still early to be thinking about saying goodbye... (I am not leaving to go on a mission until the END of NOVEMBER.) ... Nevertheless, I think about saying goodbye every day. Oh, also!--- the title. It's a little tooooo pradicatable. Perhaps I can think of a better title for it. Maybe when I write the un-written verse it will help me figure out a better title..... Again, here is what I have so far. It's called, for now, "Goodbye":

I will never forget
The love you've given to me.
But can't you see?
I have to leave.

chorus:
Goodbye hugs.
Goodbye kisses.
Goodbe maybes, what-ifs and wishes.
I'm leaving,
Goodbye.
I'm leaving, goodbye.

I'm leaving.
I'll see you when I get back.
Please--- don't forget to write back.

Don't ask me why
Just say goodbye.

[Repeat Chorus]

I've been avoiding the pain,
Standing here in the rain.
I hate losing you this way,
So I just ignore the pain [echo: ignore the pain, the pain, the pain]

And I want to wait to say
Goodbye.

[Repeat chorus]

I can't wait forever.
I wish I could stay with you forever.

But I'm leaving.
Goodbye.... [go into chorus]