A tornado...!

A frind of mine just left for a mission. She actually spoke in the Singles Ward this last Sunday (with me, by the way; I spoke in the Singles Ward, and it went really well). Anyway, she said, "I can't describe how I feel right now... These past few days have been the hardest, easiest, happiest, saddest, wonderful days of my life."

I bet a lot of people didn't know what she was talking about. I did. I feel the same way. I would describe my feelings like a tornado: all of these myrid of mixed emotions (happy, sad, overwelmed, anxious, excited, nervous, giggly...etc.) are swirling around each other and once in a while one specific one hits me hard, and then another one comes around and hits me, too....

BAM!-- I am so excited to go I can't keep still.

Whamey!--- I feel nervous and shy. I'm afraid to leave to go to Australia.

Whamp!--- I really love my boy friend, and I don't want him to ever let go of me.

Slap!--- I feel an urgency to go and declare the gospel. Only I can do this specific work that God has set aside for me. I HAVE to go; in fact, why am I not there already?

Thump!--- I am so nervous to leave because when I come back things will all be changed.

The wind is blowing...! The tornado is hovering over me. I'm not sure what I am going to be feeling next. I feel so confused, focused, anxious, lonely, happy... and a little hungry.

I think it's lunch time.