Safe

I get scared easily. Halloween? Forget it. I hate Halloween. Scary movies? No way. I get nightmares. Long Test exam? daaaahhhh! I want to run away. I do a lot of thinking. And when I do, I sometimes get really scared about life, about things...

Like the wind right now. I like the rain and all, but the wind is kind of scaring me. I've never been in a hurricane/tornado before. But what if I am in one right now? What if the house blows over? oooo.... I'm actually really scared right now. *hides under the covers*

I'm really happy that it is raining, but--- I'm feeling very unsafe about this wind. It is so noisy. And it's knocking at my door, windows and roof. It's whistling down the chimney. I have a very big imagination. In fact, maybe this is the end of the world! I don't know if I'm ready for the end of the world. What does Revelations say about the end of the world? Does it mention anything about the wind??

Seriously, I'm fine about the wind thing. I prayed. I'm going to be okay. But I think this storm makes a really good analogy for how I am feeling right now.

The wind is my imagination... trying to scare me... about the mission call. But I'm not scared because I have my distraction and my testimony.

Potentially, I could be really scared right now. I am about to get my mission call. I am expecting it tomorrow afternoon. I don't know where I am going to go. With my big imagination, I could imagine... just about anything. Any place. Real or fiction. Just a minute ago, I imagined I was called to the moon. Why would my mission call say that I am called to go to the moon? Are there aliens that need to hear about the gospel?

What I'm trying to say is that I could be very scared right now. But I'm not. Do you want to know why? I'm distracted. I didn't think it was going to be a good distraction, but it really has been. So far, anyway. It's a good symbiosis. He distracts me enough so I don't get scared. I like hanging out with him because he makes me feel safe....