An overwhelming amount of support

I am amazed at all of the support and encouragement I have been given this past week or so. When I spoke in the Singles Ward this last Sunday a countless number of people (some I'd never even met before) came to congratulate me, tell me good luck and let me know that they will be praying for me.

I appreciate the support. I know I can use the encouragement. But right now, I don't know if I'm worthy of it. But that is me, underestimating myself again. I have a tendency to do that.

I am excited, as well as nervous, to speak this Sunday in the home ward. Even though (technically) there aren't farewells anymore, this Sunday will feel and look pretty much like a farewell. I will be speaking for most of the time. My family and friends will be there. I think my boss will even be coming. My best friends will be there. People will want to shake my hand and congratulate me. I'm planning on handing out my address.

I don't know how many people will be there, really. Nevertheless, I'm a little nervous. Dad invited a lot of people. I told people at work about it, my friends from high school, my boss.... The more people I tell about it or hear that my dad is iviting more people, the more nervous I get. But I will be able to do the same talk I did in the Singles Ward. That talk went really well. The only problem was how stiff I felt while talking. I was incredibly tense. After I finished speaking my back was aching and all of my muscles felt tight and strained. Next time I will have to stay loose; keep calm.

Again, I am just amazed at the support people have been showing me: the advice, the stories, the prayers, the smiles, the hugs, the encouragement.... Everyone has been so helpful and supportive.

I feel an urgency to do the work in Australia. At the same time, I feel kind of pressured. What if I mess up? What if I don't make all these wonderful people who are supporting me proud of me?? What if I let them down?... What if... what if... what if...

Blah.

I'll do the best I can. As long as I can have God's help, I know I will be the best missionary possible. I will try my best to make all of you proud of me. Thank you all for your support!! :)